I remember being so fearless, I convinced the meanest, most stubborn mare in the world to let me ride her… bareback. (I think I just out-stubborned her). I spent all my time barefoot, running at top speeds down gravel driveways, through pastures of wild daisies, eating Huckleberries and Blackberries right off the bush and conning stray, feral cats to come home with me no matter how many scratches I earned for my efforts. I’d spend hours exploring the woods with no sense of direction, whatsoever. See that plant right there with the pink and red streaks near the bottom growing next to the fence? That’s going in my mouth right now, because nothing beats fresh Rhubarb, except for maybe Rhubarb pie.
If someone was mad at me, I confronted them right away. If I thought someone I cared about was doing something wrong or harmful to themselves, I spoke up. Unless it was in the middle of a Tornado, then they couldn’t hear me. Mother.
I never backed down from a dare or obstacle, I found a way. Wonder who I go that from… 😐
There was nothing better than riding in the back of my daddy’s pickup truck on a hot summer day or fishing tadpoles out of the drain ditches on the side of the road. Laying across the yellow lines to watch the clouds dissipate and form.
With the help of my family, I climbed to the very top of the capital building, even though I’m so afraid of heights I get nervous watching someone else on a step ladder. Yes, it is different than flying or climbing trees and mountains, I just don’t know why.
There will always be a wistful longing inside of me for that fearlessness I had as a child. Too bad it’s a product of ignorance; the price you pay for wisdom and experience. I’ll only ever know it in my memories now, because I’m a parent and nothing can turn a brave soul into a worry-wart faster than becoming a mom or dad. On the bright side, I’ve had years of watching my own kids enjoying their time in the midst of that liberating fearlessness. Now, they’re in the “I am a teenager, therefore I am Invincible” stage… but that’s for a whole other post. 🙂
♥ Happy TGIF!