To My Beloved Characters Redux+

I couldn't find one of characters shoving each other and demanding they were next... so this is a poor representation of how it really works. Blame Google images.

I couldn’t find one of characters shoving each other, name-calling and making death threats while demanding attention and declaring that their story was more important… so this is like the G rated version of how the R rated version really works. Blame Google images.

To My Beloved Characters,

Know this…

I hold the pen.  I will have you offed.  It will hurt like hell.  It will be bloody and long.  It will incorporate all of your worst fears and darkest nightmares, because I know what they are.  I am the Overlord of your Darkside, you little twit, so stop harassing me or forever will you remain in the realm of The Unfinished.

I can only write one story at a time.  Wait your turn.

Sincerely,

Your Landlady/Creator/Channeler/Fate Wielder

p.s. Your rent is WAY overdue

~ Originally posted 6 Nov 2013

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Has any other writer ever felt this way?  I’m not crazy, right? Don’t answer that.

I know I confessed yesterday to going through a bout of writer’s block, but that foggy haze of reconnection has begun again and while I’m trying to take some measure of control over its direction, I can feel the other characters in my head waking up and taking notice.  Right now, I’m in a good spot.  I’m forcing my focus to be on the sequel to The Zen Lounge, but I’m not sure how long I’ll be able to keep up the fight.

“Gryphon, move your ass!”

Jeez, lazy hardheaded stubborn, friggin’ cops…  Wish me luck!

Lost Signal

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Today’s NaBloPoMo prompt feels like a recurring theme for me lately, so I’ve decided to break the questions apart in order to inspect them each as personally and honestly as I can:

Have you ever had extended writers’ block?

What writer hasn’t?  Okay, I know that’s not making it personal.  So, the answer is yes.  Painfully, uncontrollably, frustratingly, yes.  Unfortunately, my creativity seems to be on vacation far more frequently than it’s at work and the length of the former always outlasts the length of the latter.  In fact, I’ve been experiencing a bout of writer’s block for the last week or so. Which leads us to the next part of the question…

How long did it last?

Months.  Literally months upon months.  Those are the worst times.  When I’m lucky, it will only last a few weeks or less.  Sadly, I’m typically not that lucky, but I have been attempting to correct that issue by applying those ‘tools’ others advise to use or claim to work for them.  I’ve even gone so far as having my kids choose words for me to use in some way on my blog, whether it be in a poem or short story, anything to try and kick-start that inspiration back into working order again.  So, now we’re left with the last part of this question…

What did you do to break out of it, and do you have tips for other bloggers?

The best way to explain my version of hell writer’s block is that it’s like the cell tower to my creativity goes down, causing the signal to my brain to completely drop.  Not only do I lose my ability to connect words together into a decent sentence, I lose my drive to.  My desire to.  I will sit and stare at my computer screen like a brainless zombie, absolutely no activity going on upstairs.  No sparks firing through the old lobes to assist in my dilemma.

I’m still trying to figure out how to ‘break’ out of it, as it were.  In all honesty, I generally just have to wait it out.  Wait for that invisible crew to get the cell tower back up and running again.  Inspiration will come slowly or in one, powerful burst.  I guess it just depends on that blasted signal.  As such, I don’t really have any tips for other bloggers, only a few things I do to try and put a rush on the process:

♠ Read.  I will use my writing downtime as an excuse to get caught up on my reading, because I’m always behind on it. Sometimes, I get lucky, and reading will cause inspiring ideas about my own books to start forming in my mind.  When I can’t wait to finish a book in order to start applying those ideas to my own, I know I’m in a good place.

Blog Daily.  Even when I’m not participating in NaBloPoMo, I still try to blog every single day.  Even if it’s just to complain about having writer’s block, at least I’m writing something!

♣ Take Advantage.  Rather than stressing about not being able to write, I use the time off to get caught up on other things I enjoy (or that desperately need my attention, like housework!) I hang out with friends, get my holiday lists together, read that mail that’s been piling up in the ‘it can wait’ bin…   If you have other hobbies, like painting, drawing, needlework, etc., then try to relax into one of those.  Who knows, maybe those other things will help inspire you faster than staring at the cursor blinking on your story’s document like a ticking time bomb mocking your every attempt to think coherently.

Or if you’re a gamer, like me, you might even enjoy turning the old PS3 on and blowing stuff up to work some of those frustrations out in a non-destructive manner.  Plus, it’s just plain fun and writing is work.  Life can’t be all work and no play, even creatively.

Still Waiting To Start Over…

writer's blockYes, I know it’s Tuesday, but I don’t feel like doing Triple Lyric Tuesday today.  New ideas to keep my blog interesting and interactive are constantly keeping me up at night, but to be honest, it seems the only way to get a ton of comments and/or followers is to write about those topics that are controversial.  Sorry, I’m not going there.  This is my ‘professional’ blog, more or less and I find the news depressing, to boot.  Let the media worry about stirring up the proverbial shit bucket… I’d rather write about writing.

And that brings me to the point of today’s post.  Ever since I moved, I haven’t written a single thing.  It’s really bothering me.  I’ve tinkered by editing while re-reading the partial stories that I should be working on.  I can’t seem to take my creativity off “hold” now that the move is over and we’re more settled into our new routine.  I have the whole day long while the kids are in school to work… and I’m not working.  But my house is spectacularly clean! 🙂  I guess, that’s a bright side.

I’ve also noticed that even though we’ve been living here for 2 months now, we’re still waiting to start over.  My kids treat our new home like it’s some temporary perdition we have to get through before we can move back to our hometown 30 minutes away.  Though, they’ve both already made a ton of new friends – I understand that they still miss their old friends (and still spend a lot of time with them!)

Being an Army brat, I wanted my kids to have a more stable home, go to the same schools and such.  Now, I feel that by doing so, I may have robbed them of all of the experience I had growing up.  Of course, as a parent, we’re always questioning our choices.  Wondering if we’re doing the best we can.  The problem is that as much as I like our hometown and think it’s a good community, I’m starting to look back on it as one of those places that sucks your life away.  Maybe that’s extreme, and maybe it’s because I was an Army brat, I’m not sure.  I just know that the entire town feels stagnant to me.  Like there’s no way to move forward while living there.  I’ve always admired those who can just up and move clear across the country.  If it were just me, I may have attempted that, but I won’t take my kids away from all of their family.

One thing’s for certain, though… regardless of where I am, I have got to figure out how to get my creativity back in shape!  It’s so frustrating knowing exactly where you want to go with a handful of stories, yet not having the right juices flowing in order to get them there!  It’s like feeling the desire, having the ideas of a great Renaissance Master in your heart and soul, in your veins… and only being able to paint stick figures.  😐

Anyone Else? Anyone?

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Am I the only one who goes through phases?  One minute you can’t seem to get all of the ideas out of your brain fast enough and the next, you’re staring at the screen, drooling on yourself?  It’s not “writer’s block” per se, just kind of a glitch in the ol’ motherboard.

My progress has always been controlled by whether or not my creativity switch is working properly.  If you haven’t guessed, I’m at a total loss as to what I should blog about today.  I’ve been cruising around reading everyone else’s blogs trying to find some iota of inspiration (not that my fellow bloggers aren’t inspiring) yet my brain is stuck on “Nah, not feelin’ it today” mode.

It’s more of a commenting kind of day – which works, since most days I hardly have time to put up my own post, let alone view others – and I end up missing some really great stuff.  I’m still working on my Character Bio’s, but this has also hampered the forward movement of the story, itself.  Doing bios isn’t writing the book – or in this case – successfully merging two different storylines into one big Bestseller! (Hey, I’m optimistic!)

Writing is bad enough, but my artwork is also suffering.  I haven’t switched my About.me background in weeks and I think the villagers are starting to sharpen their pitchforks.

*Big sigh, lifts coffee cup* Here’s hoping tomorrow brings about a little more creativity than I’m getting today.  Or at least some daily prompts that I can work with.